Why can't I genetically be a stick?

...meaning thin. I mean I know i'm not overweight (well, actually my wii fit tells me I'm borderline). I never had to struggle with any weight issues in high school and the majority of college. Of course, the beer and pizza in college packed on an extra 20 lbs. But this post-baby figure is really hard to grasp. I mean pre-baby I didn't have the greatest stomach but now I definitely don't have anything worth showing. You know it's bad when you cringe in the mirror and wonder what the heck happened to your stomach. Where I once had a flat stomach..maybe with one roll, but mostly flat...now I have 2 large rolls accompanied by little indentions. I know, I know, its all for a good cause..my little redhead. But why can't everything just go back the way it was? I'll tell you why.... I LACK MOTIVATION. I'm totally capable of losing 10 more lbs like I want and toning up. Though I'm only 5 lbs from pre-pregnancy weight, it's totally NOT situated in the same spots! I lack the motivation and energy though! I start dieting for a week and then give up. Partly because my work has junk food all the time and I have no will power, but also because my child eats chicken nuggets and somehow they are appealing to me at 6pm when I'm hungry but only have time to cook for Tyler. Lately, i've been making Tyler go to bed at 8. We eat after he goes to bed and then the last thing I want to do is exercise. Actually, since American Idol went off in March, I stopped it all together. The entire season I would do the elliptical until the show was over. It was the one show that made me forget I was exercising. I mean I can't wait until January 2009 for it to come back on though! So, what do I do? Stop getting on the internet at night? Well, for many reasons I should do that! Exercise in the morning? Heck no. Absolutely not getting up earlier than I already have to..which is 6am.

I'm in a dilemma.