Drained

Today I have my fifth dermatology appointment, another $45 co pay, and another opinion about this reoccurring rash.  I finished my second round of steroids on Saturday, and yesterday it started to come back.

I’m drained. 

Today Ryan is 2 months old, and instead of posting a happy post about his accomplishments, all I really feel like saying is that I’m tired.  We’re all tired.   His tummy is so bothersome to him that it wakes him up at night.  He’s sleeping worse than ever.  We have not once made it past 4 hrs, and then we have a hard time getting him back down.  When he’s happy, he’s so happy.  But unfortunately, his gassiness is taking a toll on me.  I’ve tried Mylicon, gripe water, and now have just ordered Colic Calm.  There have been recent days and hours where I just want to quit nursing altogether. 

I’m drained.

I hope to have a more positive post in a few days, but until then I’m just trying to make it through the day and pray that I will get through this by next Wednesday when I return to work.